completed in less than 24 hours for the chicago zine fest, this 32 page, ½ size, black & white zine focuses on the ups and downs of finding myself outside of the gender binary. this three-part zine deals with various facets of gender variant/trans* identity and attempts to both de- and re-construct various questions about my own gender as well as gender in general.
"looking the part: when is gender a drag and when is it not?" focuses on growing up participating in gender-segregated activities, being taunted for being “too masculine” and feeling pushed out of femininity, how masculinity is viewed as inherent and femininity is viewed as a fictitious performance, embracing what many would call “hard femme” throughout my teens years as a defense, and how striving for the “perfect balance” of two genders is not plausible nor an adequate solution.
"not in a vacuum: how transgressive genders lose or gain meanings in various spaces" explains my switch from identifying as a “grrl” to gender variant/trans*, taking a job in which i was out as trans* (but as a trans man), dealing with being trans*/gender variant and the acceptance or tolerance (or neither) that i feel in various spaces, how my radical friends misgender and disrespect me more often than my non-radical ones, how whiteness permeates trans*/queer identities, and the (non-) accessibility of queer jargon and language.
"none of the above: on choosing the label of no label" explores how coming out has garnered me the most intense gender assumptions yet, dealing with friends who don’t “get it”, my desire to validate my own identity without stepping on the identity of others, how envisioning my gender is a work of science fiction, and a call for white trans*/queer folks to spend more time checking our white privilege.
*the first pressing of this zine will be limited to 100 copies and each will be given its own specific number. *