What does your ideal daily life look like? What is holding you back from living that life? What kind of art do you make? What is your home like? Do you move a lot? Why? Why not? Do you carry a notebook wherever you go? Where would you like to be one year from now? Five years? What will you do today to bring yourself closer to that place? And so on…
I talk about making priorities: daily to-do lists, monthly goals, etc., and breaking them down into small, do-able things that will grow into even more magical and wonderful things. Some examples of my goals and priorities include: finishing projects, time outdoors, friendship, getting rid of stuff, challenging myself, and creating meaningful days (or stumbling into them).
I write about my morning ritual of drinking coffee and deciding what to do with my day, all the questions I ask myself every morning, and I talk about how I used to want somebody to guide me through my life and hold my hand and make my decisions for me because I was too depressed to do it on my own, but now I am trying to become that person for myself because nobody else can be. I write about my need for validation & acknowledgment, and my secret dream of being some kind of weirdo life coach. I try to briefly dismantle the myth of Crazy Artists and discuss one of my affirmations that sometimes really saves my life: “I would rather be Margaret Atwood than Sylvia Plath.”
And I write about attempting to deal with manic episodes without romanticizing them, I write about starting writing clubs and whatnot locally, and I write about finding inspiration and destroying writer’s block. I write about a lot of things.
This zine is dedicated to a friend of mine, another writer/zinester, who died recently. My heart is broken, but/and I feel more determined to keep myself & my pals & all of us weirdos alive & strong & smiling because I don’t want the world to destroy us, I don’t want to join The Twenty-Seven Club.
Telegram #25 is quarter-sized, 24 pages, cut&paste, text-heavy.
P.S.: Yes, I recently altered the title of my zine! Explanations are within the zine, as well as on my blog at marandaelizabeth.com. Basically, I no longer identify as female, and writing under a gendered title makes me feel alienated, unsafe, and uncomfortable.
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