mytangiblepeace

My Tangible Peace

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Announcement    One-of-a-Kind, hand sculpted, newborn Art dolls.

Creating Art for Your Heart


I'm sorry that you have found me because your heart bleeds...
I know that your world has just been turned upside down and flipped inside out.

I too have lost a child. Her name was Madison and she was 16 months old when she died.

I sculpt these babies for you, and I sculpt them for me. This is my therapy. This is not my day job or how I support my family, this is how I deal with living my life without my daughter. We all do our own things to survive, and this is one of the things that I do.

I'm putting this as my Welcome Message because it's an important thing for you to know. I have been sculpting for over 15 years now, and throughout that time I have been reprimanded for not responding quick enough to my emails, or convos, or because an item didn't ship on the day that it was intended to. Reprimanded, threatened and bullied. I've closed my shop at times because of it.

I need it to be known that these babies are a hobby and an outlet, not a profession or a career. There is no way that I could sculpt for a living because I would burn out. I would burn out and then I would be doing it for all of the wrong reasons. I would be sculpting for a paycheck, I would be making a living off of our losses and that it not what my artwork isl about.

I sculpt because it sings with my soul. I have been trusted with the memories of 1000's of angels. Each family has had to take that terrifying step to reach out, share their story of devastation & loss, and confirm that this is what they want to do. If you are reading this and have gotten this far you already know that that step is not easy. There is fear in trusting your most precious photographs and memories to a complete stranger in an effort for them to create a sculpture in your baby's likeness. I've been on the other side of the coin and came away very disappointed. I don't want to disappoint anyone. Broken hearts and souls, not again, it's a heavy burden to bare.

I need you to know that this Etsy store is not a traditional store. I'm offering a service. Yes, there is a price tag, but that price tag covers the cost of my expenses. When I started sculpting, 15 years ago, I didn't charge for my work but instead asked for donations. It was my hope that those who could pay, would, and those who couldn't would be balanced by a more generous donation. In the end only a few people actually donated. Most people just took. They took and they were mean, rude, and abrasive, and when I didn't have their sculpture completed they called me names and told me that I should be ashamed of myself. I took a year off when this happened. I ignored everything. I stopped sculpting, but my soul never stopped longing for my clay. When I came back I decided that I would put a price tag on my work. I did this not to make money, but to keep people honest, nice, and to allow the project to pay and sustain itself.

I am one person. I cannot hire someone to help me. I'm also a divorced, single mom of 3 very busy kiddo's. I'm running my house solo. I work full time in human services, and I sculpt in my free time. My very limited free time. That is why there is a long wait for my work. That is why I'm not always quick in responding to questions and email; I'm balancing life and art. It's hard and I'm doing my very best.

I ask that if you are wholeheartedly interested in obtaining a sculpture from me to please be patient. I will get to you. I'm not ignoring you, I promise, and in the end I hope that the wait was well worth it.

There are other artist out there that do similar artwork to what I do and may be more efficient and timely. You are not required to buy from me, but if you do I appreciate your patience and understanding of this person, her story, and a process behind the art that you are about to receive.

Peace to you.
Jenn

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Last updated on Sep 10, 2021

One-of-a-Kind, hand sculpted, newborn Art dolls.

Creating Art for Your Heart


I'm sorry that you have found me because your heart bleeds...
I know that your world has just been turned upside down and flipped inside out.

I too have lost a child. Her name was Madison and she was 16 months old when she died.

I sculpt these babies for you, and I sculpt them for me. This is my therapy. This is not my day job or how I support my family, this is how I deal with living my life without my daughter. We all do our own things to survive, and this is one of the things that I do.

I'm putting this as my Welcome Message because it's an important thing for you to know. I have been sculpting for over 15 years now, and throughout that time I have been reprimanded for not responding quick enough to my emails, or convos, or because an item didn't ship on the day that it was intended to. Reprimanded, threatened and bullied. I've closed my shop at times because of it.

I need it to be known that these babies are a hobby and an outlet, not a profession or a career. There is no way that I could sculpt for a living because I would burn out. I would burn out and then I would be doing it for all of the wrong reasons. I would be sculpting for a paycheck, I would be making a living off of our losses and that it not what my artwork isl about.

I sculpt because it sings with my soul. I have been trusted with the memories of 1000's of angels. Each family has had to take that terrifying step to reach out, share their story of devastation & loss, and confirm that this is what they want to do. If you are reading this and have gotten this far you already know that that step is not easy. There is fear in trusting your most precious photographs and memories to a complete stranger in an effort for them to create a sculpture in your baby's likeness. I've been on the other side of the coin and came away very disappointed. I don't want to disappoint anyone. Broken hearts and souls, not again, it's a heavy burden to bare.

I need you to know that this Etsy store is not a traditional store. I'm offering a service. Yes, there is a price tag, but that price tag covers the cost of my expenses. When I started sculpting, 15 years ago, I didn't charge for my work but instead asked for donations. It was my hope that those who could pay, would, and those who couldn't would be balanced by a more generous donation. In the end only a few people actually donated. Most people just took. They took and they were mean, rude, and abrasive, and when I didn't have their sculpture completed they called me names and told me that I should be ashamed of myself. I took a year off when this happened. I ignored everything. I stopped sculpting, but my soul never stopped longing for my clay. When I came back I decided that I would put a price tag on my work. I did this not to make money, but to keep people honest, nice, and to allow the project to pay and sustain itself.

I am one person. I cannot hire someone to help me. I'm also a divorced, single mom of 3 very busy kiddo's. I'm running my house solo. I work full time in human services, and I sculpt in my free time. My very limited free time. That is why there is a long wait for my work. That is why I'm not always quick in responding to questions and email; I'm balancing life and art. It's hard and I'm doing my very best.

I ask that if you are wholeheartedly interested in obtaining a sculpture from me to please be patient. I will get to you. I'm not ignoring you, I promise, and in the end I hope that the wait was well worth it.

There are other artist out there that do similar artwork to what I do and may be more efficient and timely. You are not required to buy from me, but if you do I appreciate your patience and understanding of this person, her story, and a process behind the art that you are about to receive.

Peace to you.
Jenn

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My baby died too...

I know why you are here. I get it.
And I am so, so sorry.

This Etsy store is not a business. I am not in this to make a profit off of your loss. I sculpt for both us; for you and for me. I would like this shop to be seen as one grieving and heartbroken parent connecting with another. You are not here because all is well...and you know what? Neither am I.


It wasn't until a few months after my daughter's death that I realized that it was really the end. The end of getting up early, the end of cutting her food, the end of picking up scattered toys and books, the end of hugs and snuggles...the end of pictures, the end of memories, it's done. When my fog lifted the reality of my new life hit me like a Volvo falling from a 5 story building. Life had continued to buzz on around me and I wasn't ready to just jump back in. How does a mother just move on and live without her child? She was my everything, and in the span of an afternoon's nap she was gone. Just gone.

It's been 21 years. Over two decades, and when I think about all of the time that passed between then and now it feels more like I'm trying to recall a dream than remember my actual life. It's a weird place to live if you actually sit and think about it, and I don't honestly think I live there unless I'm actually thinking about it, but it's still very much a part of this process. It's a life long process.

The first time that I went out and attempted to do something normal, i.e. shopping downtown, I remember this big feeling cloaking me like a wet wool blanket. It was heavy, clingy and pervasive and I felt trapped. I needed something physical. I longed for her and the purpose that she brought into my life and, in that moment, I needed to buy her something. The logical side of my brain told me that I was being foolish because she was dead and didn’t need anything, but my soul craved it. So I looked. I looked not really knowing what I was looking for trusting that if/when I saw it that I would know. Then it happened. It was a pair of shoes. Oh, she loved shoes. They were red, red, Mary Janes and they were loaded with glitter. Oh they were ugly but boy she would have loved them. I put the shoe box with the ruby red slippers in my cart, checked out, and I felt a little bit better.

I haven't bought much over the years, but I do do it and it does help for awhile. It's like the relief you feel when you put a bandaid on. There is an instant comfort in knowing that it's there. Knowing that it’s protecting your vulnerable wound. Keeping the dirt out. It makes things okay for a bit, but with time and as the waves of grief crash over your body it's hold loosens and eventually it washes away. Living after the loss of your child is a terribly difficult thing to do, but there are a lot of us out there that are doing it. Please know that you are not alone and that there are loss groups for parents and caregivers through your local home health agencies, parent child centers and online. Please reach out to me or your local community supports if you want to be connected to something in your community or online, we are happy to help. This is hard to do solo.

With that, I'm sorry that you are looking for something to memorialize your baby and keep your memories safe. I know that your heart aches and that your mind swirls, and that those around you want nothing more than to help ease the heaviness of your grief. You must know that you are not alone, but boy I know that it feels like it. The short fuse, the unexpected break downs, the questioning, the ‘what if’s’ are all a normal part of this journey. Normal? Can you believe it? The definition of the word itself, 'Normal', has a whole new meaning now. Nobody signs up for this. We are all a drafted army of mother's who are fighting to survive an unimaginable loss. Our eyes and noses barely above the waterline as we tread through the currents, banded together because we want to fight for our children, for their memories, and most importantly for ourselves. If we wither away who will remember them for us? Who will light the candle or release the balloon on their birthday? Can we trust that to anyone else? No. So we live. We tread for awhile, then we crawl, and as our strength grows we stand. Once standing moving forward becomes easier, and it really doesn't hurt as much. The aches and longings will forever be threaded throughout our bodies and our love and power will reside there. To quote Ernest Hemingway: "We're stronger in the places that we've been broken.”

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  • Jenn Chittick

    Owner

    I'm a mother. A artist. A gardener. An introvert. A lover of coffee and of souls. I'm a social worker and mother by day and my art happens when called upon.

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  • Opal Chittick

    Johnson, VT

    Supporting my daughter as she explore her creative side.

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Last updated on Dec 29, 2018
Frequently asked questions
Can you create a sculpture using a picture of my baby?

Yes I can. You can email me pictures along with birth measurements and I will do my very best to capture your baby's likeness in the artwork.

If I buy one of your babies can I reproduce it in resin or silicone?

No you can't. Not without written consent from me. All of my work is handmade upon order and original works of art. I have only had 4 sculptures ever reproduced.

How long does it take for you to make my baby?

The sculpting time can vary due to the complexity of the piece. I work to have your order completed within a 10-14 day time span. Sometimes I can take longer but I do try to communicate this when it occurs.

What do these sculptures feel like?

They are made out of a blend of polymer clays so when they are cured they are hard to the touch. Think porcelain doll.

Where do you ship to?

I ship worldwide. I'm located in the United States and I do ask that the buyer is responsible for shipping charges. If you go into the listing that you are interested in shipping costs should automatically be calculated based on your location. I am not responsible for parcels once they leave my home. All parcels have tracking numbers so you can follow them as they travel to you.

Do you ship via FedEx or UPS?

Unfortunately I do not. I live in a very rural part of northern VT and I would have to travel upwards of an hour to find either currier. I ship USPS with tracking and have had success with it. I've been shipping sculptures for over a decade and only a small handful have ever broken during transit and I don't think any have ever been lost.

What do you do with the photos of my baby after you are done with the sculpture?

That's a really great question. The photos that you send me of your baby are kept safe and private. I am very respectful of the treasure that I have and I only use them to complete the sculpture and when I'm don't I delete the email thread so that they are no longer in my possession. I never share them or post them online.